THE JOURNEY

I thought my life was complicated, I thought I had no capacity to love, I thought I had no right to be in a relationship, I thought I had no right to be happy.....
I was focused on getting past something I had little or no control over the outcome.
I put my life on hold, trying to achieve one goal......
Little did I know that i was putting my life in a hole.

I wanted just two things.......
This thing and That thing.
But nothing was coming forth.
Not because I was not focused or determined enough...
sometimes, its just within your powers.
No-matter the plans, things still fell apart. Almost tearing me apart.
Expectations upon expectations....
And then my greatest fear, their faith begins to wane; their pressure weighing me down.
My ideology goes under microscope.
Change is constant and difficult...so I hold on to the status quo.
Pressing on- unto nothingness.
But in all these, I did not lose my identity...
My faith in me was my resistance to their pressures, it bore me up.
The right association, kept me afloat.
Friends left.
Some I pushed away, some I came away...some ran away..................‪#‎2_be_continued‬